My stepmom is a crazy bitch. She's not talking to me, she cancelled our hotels in Florida and cancelled her ticket. Told me (via my work email) I need to find my own accommodations. I already paid my half of those hotels, and don't know when the refund is coming through. Regardless, I don't have the money (or enough time on the internet) to schedule some new hotels this close to the trip, which was supposed to be September 2nd. I told her she might as well cancel mine too.
All of this is due to my being such a terrible, awful, mean, disrespectful, manipulative individual. Owing to the fact that I did not refill the gas tank in her truck when I borrowed it to move my LoveSac to my new apartment.
My dad is coming over today at noon to "talk, face to face, you and me". Okay... If you're going to defend her again, Dad, I will tell you "to your face" that you, sir, are a pushover. If you're going to talk about how much you "fought for me", well, you, sir, are still a pushover. Because you never win those battles. It's all for show. If you're going to tell me how much you love me, well, you, sir, told me years ago that the "Sacrament of Matrimony" is a sacrament with God, and therefore comes first in your life. Yes, before the children that you had BEFORE you ever met the bitch. So your words are empty. And you wonder why I've lost my religion.
I have given her love, compassion, trust, forgiveness, and faithfulness for the last 14 years of my life. Yet, I am still a failure in her eyes, not worthy enough to be in her life any longer. "She has to protect her heart", Dad says. From me? Can someone, ANYONE, please explain to me what I have done that's hurt her so bad. She feels like I'm taking advantage of her. Ma'am, if you want to give away your pills and refuse to accept anything that is offered in return for it, how is it taking advantage of you to come and ask for more once in a while? That is- if that is what you are referring to... it's only my best guess.
When your daughter's car breaks down, can't be fixed, and she is in a bind and cannot buy a new car right now, is it not natural for the daughter to ask some assistance of her parents? "Please, can I borrow your 3rd car that you never use for a little while so that I can get to work until I get back on my feet after taking care of a lease break due to unsafe living conditions, trying to fix my car and failing, moving into a new, better, cheaper apartment for the good of myself, all by myself, with the help of a few friends." No, I'm just being selfish. I need to grow up and figure it out on my own. That's part of being an adult. Okay, you want me to be an adult? Then fucking treat me like one! And act like adults yourselves, please?
Yeah, right.... /endrant